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Survivor Spotlight: MARK FRITSCH
: Renal Cell Carcinoma Survivor December, 2007
Survivor Spotlight: JOANNE D'ALTON
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight: FRANK YINKO
: Colon Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight: NANCY LAARMAN
: Ovarian Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on MIKE LEMAHIEU
: Colon Cancer Survivor (with liver metastisis)
Survivor Spotlight on MARY LICHTERMAN
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight: JIM HAMMERLING
: Multiple Myeloma Survivor
Survivor Spotlight: LORI SCHULTZ
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update: BOB SHAROT
: Head & Neck Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on MATT RILEY
: Medullablastoma Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on MARTY TEN PAS
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update on RALPH LEMP
: Prostate Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update on SANDY AMWEG
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on STEVE PHILIPPS
: Prostate Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on IONE HEINEN
: Breast Cancer & Colo-Rectal Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update: DON FICKETT
: As Told By Caregiving Champion: LINDA FICKETT
Survivor Spotlight Update on AUDREY SWITA
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on BOB SHAROT
: Head & Neck Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlights on DIANA BRAY & MARY SCHMEISER
: Diana - Lung Cancer, Mary - Breast Cancer
Survivor Spotlight Update on GENE TE WINKLE
: Melanoma Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update on MARY ANN HAMMES
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on ART WESENER (Colon Cancer)
: with Caregiving Champion JOANNE WESENER
Survivor Spotlight on JUDY FRIEDERICHS
: Breast Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update on PAT JENKINS
: Breast Cancer & Hodgkin's Disease Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on: DR. PHIL WALKER
: Prostate Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update on: Rollie Huibregtse
: Leukemia Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on: PEGGY KERR
: Colon Cancer Survivor
Survivor Spotlight on EUGENE TEWINKLE
: Melonoma Survivor
Survivor Spotlight Update on LINDA BURKART
: Thymoma Cancer Survivor It's been about two years now since I was diagnosed. Just a couple of weeks ago I went to Indiana for my CT scans and check up. I have to say that it can be really tough the days before these tests and while I wait for the results. I get myself all upset and depressed and I prepare myself just in case the results aren't so good. I think I use that as a defense mechanism and it's a way of protecting myself so if I get some bad news it's not such a big blow. I've been told it gets easier, and maybe it has gotten a little easier, but it's going slow! I have to be very difficult to live with when I get closer and closer to those tests. But the results were very good! I couldn't say for sure, but I probably think about cancer every day, but not in a bad way. It's not like I wake up every morning and think, "Oh my gosh, what if it comes back again." I think more about some of the experiences that I have had. If, for example, I find myself thinking about surgery or something that wasn't real pleasant and my mind starts down that road I just tell myself that there's really no purpose in that, so I just take my mind somewhere else. There's no reason to relive those things. And not all of the experiences of cancer have been bad, so I might start thinking about some of the good experiences. So it's not like thinking about cancer will put me in a bad mood or anything. I'm not sure how other people deal with it... maybe they handle it better than I do. I still worry and I think I will always worry. But when I don't have any tests and I'm feeling okay I'm on this big "high." I enjoy life so much more and get more pleasure out of things. This is my favorite time of the year because I love being in the woods bow hunting. I've always enjoyed that but now it's that much better. Words just can't describe it. I was in pretty good shape before I got sick. While I was in the hospital I had to miss some days of walking, but other than that I think I only missed one day of walking through chemo and that was as much because there was this big blizzard... and I didn't feel good. And I continue to walk. The fall after I was diagnosed I couldn't use a compound bow because of the surgery so I used a crossbow. But by the next year it wasn't a problem. I continue to work on my karate. Now, as a matter of fact, I'm working to be a black belt candidate. It's really getting tough! I've stayed very active and now I'd say that physically I am 100% of where I was before all of this. Emotionally I think I might still have some work to do. For example, for a while I really focused on trying to do things that I enjoy doing. But, as we all know, there are things in life that we have to do whether we enjoy them or not. So I have to continue to work on that. I am a Christian and I have faith and I know He's always there. But this is such a big thing it really takes your faith to the limits. If I wasn't a person of faith I really don't know how I would have gotten through this. In the end it has brought me closer to God and it has given me even more faith that there is a God. You just can't go through something like this and experience all the wonderful things along the way, things that I believe were miracles, without believing in God. Sure, I wish I wouldn't have had to go through this and I wish I didn't have to deal with the tests and the uncertainties for the rest of my life... but it's not as though I am mad at God. Selfishly, my faith in God means that if I'm in trouble I know He's right here with me and I don't need to find Him.
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